June 2025 Review

This past December, I decided to the 12 Magical Nights Ritual to set my intentions and manifest awesomeness for 2025 (I will be happy to go over this ritual towards the end of the year). I made the decision to pull a tarot card each night to set the intention and energy for each month of the year. I would do the mini tarot reading for the month, write it in my yearly "Goal" journal, do the ritual (outside), and then come back in and describe what happened, how I felt, and what went through my head while performing it in the journal as well. I decided that at the end of each month, I would review the entry I made and see what how it coincided with my experience and then do another tarot pull to see what I should take away from that month. I have also started doing a mini 3 card pull to give me a heads up for the next month.

It's weird and sad that June went by so fast so let's see how it weathered against the tarot reading at the end of last year:

The card I pulled: 2 of Wands

• Individual success

• Making bigger decisions

• Discovery

• Future planning

• Progress

I remember feeling hopeful once again, because the night before had such a great card and promise of goodness! I could definitely jump on board with this fortune! And the ritual went swimmingly as well! I mean, I was gaining confidence in the burning wish which had been such a fear in the beginning. Not only was I able to hold the little fire longer between my fingers, I was able to keep it burning in the jar after I dropped in. And just because it had gone so well and it represented the half way mark in the upcoming year, I decided that I would light an additional match and toss it in the jar just to burn up any remaining bits of wishes and to symbolically "tie up any loose ends". It was perfect.

So, how did that compare to the REAL month of June? I can't say it went that perfectly. It was a busy month for me. The school year was coming to an end and with that comes a lot of school related business, events, and emotions for four kiddos. It's actually the month of the school year for me when it pertains to my kids. As much as I wanted to be THAT mom that had all the energy to be crafty and excited and SOCIAL, I am not. So, end of the year always tends to drain me and I end up just anxiously anticipating the month to end.

On top of that, I had put together 2 community events. One, a first ever for our community...a community yardsale/moving sale/mini market. Two days of our neighborhood hosting people from all over the city to try and sell our used items, original artwork, lemonade, baked goods, and hotdogs and popcorn! It turned out wonderfully after much encouragement from the public, we decided that it will be an annual thing. The other event, was our 4th annual school's out ice cream social. The truth is, the actual planning isn't stressful any more. I pretty much have it down. The critical part is funding. In previous years, my husband funded a good portion of it, but we started getting good traction last year from the public with donations. This year, really cut it close. So close that funds were coming in as was having to step out in faith to purchase the items needed. And I ended up putting in a lot of extra stress and effort. Then...it rained. It rained A LOT. I had decided that I was going to be taking the rest of the summer off from all events and planning of events. Everything can resume in September.

To make the month extra hard, it was the last month I had with my best friend as my neighbor, in same city, in the same PROVINCE!! My emotional state always seemed on the brink of dam breaking and letting all the tears out. I had to breathe through so many moments, but I wanted to be as helpful as I could to her and her family and spend as much time as our husbands would allow (good thing they both understood). The sadness that we couldn't travel much this summer really set in when I realized I didn't know when I was going to be able to see her in person again.

Needless to say, June was emotional for me. And just like any other human, when emotions run high, they run high in all areas of our life. Relationships struggle. Work life struggles. Tension seems to make it's home in your life and then make a freaking mess of everything! My dreams even started to be affected! It's difficult to look back at the month and see all the goodness I felt that June was going to bring back in the previous December. But that's why I am doing this, right?! I am challenging myself to look and see the truth and beauty in it.

Okay, 2 of Wands, let's see what really came of it:

• Individual success? I will not deny I pulled off two really good events.

• Making bigger decisions? I did make some pretty big personal decisions in my heart that will remain private.

• Discovery? My dreams definitely uncovered some subconscious thoughts and feelings that need more attention.

• Future planning? Yes! I did do that. Not in depth though like normal. Just a rough plan traveling.

• Progress? This one is really hard. I don't see it, unless you count the progress of emotions, because...then yes. I have learned how to better manage many aspects of my emotional state and that is "progress".

Once again, it's never just cut and dry with readings. It's an easy mistake to just take a card at face value and not apply it in other ways. You'd think I'd learn my lesson by now, but nope. And honestly, it won't be the last time that I think it means one way and goes another. It's actually quite beautiful if you think about it. It's good to know that I don't see or know everything. How boring life would be, huh?

Per usual, I did a pull to see what I should take away from last month. And I pulled the 6 of Swords: "You've been through a rough time between circumstances and relationships and it affected you, but now it's time to get back on track. Don't get lost in the grief, hurt, anger, and exhaustion."

Ugh, it's true. It's also difficult. June was exhausting, in several ways. And in all transparency, I have a history of settling in my sorrow and exhaustion. Yes, rest is an extremely important part of life. EXTREMELY important. The "Spoon" Theory is very helpful in teaching you to navigate rest and boundaries. However, just like an arm in a cast, you have to move it once the cast comes off. Rest is needed to heal, but if you stay too long in that mode, you will atrophy. You have to get back out there or you will remain stuck and things will get worse. I have to remind myself of that. Life is too precious to be swallowed up in "rest" (I mean, is it rest by that time or is it now something else that we labeled "rest" to feel better about it). Man, that's another blog in the making.

I did my customary 3 question pull for July:

What to expect from July: King of Pentacles- Wealth starts with hard work and cooperation. A time of sharing.

How to handle July: 4 of Cups REVERSED- Be introspective, but don't become a hermit. Socialize within your capacity.

July overall: 9 of Cups- Things finally start falling into place and making sense.

I'll take it!! June took a lot out of me. I mean, this whole year has so far! I will gladly walk into the second half of it with hope that things will finally come together. That those wishes I made last December actually come true and I start feeling more me and walking more in my passion and purpose.