January in review

A month in review, Tarot forecast and what happened: January 2025

This past December, I decided to the 12 Magical Nights Ritual to set my intentions and manifest awesomeness for 2025 (I will be happy to go over this ritual towards the end of the year). I made the decision to pull a tarot card each night to set the intention and energy for each month of the year. I would do the mini tarot reading for the month, write it in my yearly "Goal" journal, do the ritual (outside), and then come back in and describe what happened, how I felt, and what went through my head while performing it in the journal as well. I decided that at the end of each month, I would review the entry I made and see what how it coincided with my experience and then do another tarot pull to see what I should take away from that month.

Well, January just ended and let's go back and see just what happened...

The card pulled: 9 of Pentacles

Here's literally what I wrote in my journal for the meanings I felt I needed to remember about the card for the month:

• Material comfort

• Abundance

• Accomplishment

• Honors

• A sense of self worth

• Safety and security

• Long term planning

• Able to weather the storm

I was excited. I will be completely honest. I thought, "Yes! This is EXACTLY the way I want my year to begin!" I mean seriously, who wouldn't want that?!

Now, for the ritual part, I had decided that was going to do it outside no matter the weather (it rains a lot here). To set my intentions in the beauty of night time nature as a way to connect myself, to ground myself, and to not burn my house down if I were to accidently burn myself and freak out. So, I took my jar full of 13 wishes, my box of matches, my candle, and another jar for burning the wish in. Again, I was excited about this card I just pulled, and I was excited and full of hope to burn whatever wish was going to burn and I had full confidence that it is going to manifest this upcoming year somehow. There I stood in my front yard at our picnic table with glow from my front window and a street light a little ways over. I remember thinking, "If my neighbors see, they are really going to think I'm crazy!" But making the full decision then that I wasn't going to care. I wanted this too much. I needed these things too much. I struck a match and lit the candle I placed on the table. I dropped the used match in the burning jar and started to blindly dig through my wish jar while saying a prayer of gratitude. I closed my eyes and drew out a single folded wish. I took a deep breath and exhaled all of the air and all the doubt I possibly could. Unfortunately, it took several times trying to catch the folded piece of paper and quickly dropping it the jar in an attempt to not burn myself to work. I was so scared that it would burn to fast...that I would hold on for too long...that I wouldn't make it into the jar. Let's just say fear wanted to take over all the good stuff. I even tried to help it by relighting the used match and dropping it back in the jar. I didn't lose hope though. In fact, it was I started to find it funny. And by the time the paper finally accepted the flame, I was giggling out loud. And that giggle turned into a full laugh when the wish didn't just catch and slowly burn, it burned brightly with a large flame! I waited until it burned out and thanked God again as I blew out my candle and walked back into my house.

Now, I am going to be completely honest with you when I tell you: January was a TOUGH month. Far from the month of abundance and comfort that I had expected from that 9 of Pentacles that I had pulled just the month before! Between physical injuries, strained friendships, and financial upsets, January could have absolutely destroyed me! But it didn't. I actually remained level headed through it. Oh yes, I cried. I had my moments of shock. And I was definitely flat out angry at times. All natural human emotions and within reason reactions. That is not my history. I am autistic. I struggle to regulate my nervous system a lot. I have a hard time with changing things. I have a tendency to over react at least at first until I can find my footing. This "cool and calm" Kay was surprising to me. I just kept reminding myself of that card. I survived saying things like, "All my needs will met." "This is only temporary." "It's all going to be ok...more than ok!" Now, grant it, the circumstances were absolutely not listening to my words, but for the first time, maybe in my life, my heart was.

I found myself productive in January. I finally launched this site. I started moving my body more. I started back on a diet that I know has always been good for me. I made a 2025 BINGO card. After a year of autistic burnout kicking my ass, I started checking things off of my HUGE "To Do" list. I even started organizing my basement again!!! So, here my world was in chaos and I not only was I not losing my shit, I was getting it together!

Needless to say though, I was grateful that January was over. I was extremely curious to go back to that journal and laugh at how absurd that mini reading was. I didn't laugh. I cried. In truth, I am tearing up now as I think about it.

• Material Comfort? My needs were met.

• Abundance? My energy and motivation was more than abundant.

• Accomplishments? I finally got my website up and social media platforms going.

• Honors? I was blessed enough to have people love me and encourage me.

• Sense of self worth? I am proud of how I handled January.

• Safety and security? I always had food in our kitchen, roof over my head, and real relationships.

• Long term planning? We had to come up with a new financial plan.

• Able to weather the storm? I did.

I absolutely did! There was no doubt about it. That mini reading was spot on. Just not in the way I thought it was going to be. But, I mean, does it ever?! I let the beauty of that reading set in for a few minutes before I decided to pull a card to see what my take away from January should be.

As I was shuffling, as small stack flew out. Now, normally, if a card or two fly out while shuffling, it's normally a big sign those cards mean something. But when a mini deck comes out...it's normally just me needing to calm myself down. And yes, I am sure I should walk away with dozens of lessons from January, but no, I wasn't taking all those rogue cards seriously. As I was putting them back in the deck, I my eye caught the glimpse of the top facing card and another that had flown out a little further. But nevertheless, I continued to shuffle them all back in. Not a minute later, IT HAPPENED AGAIN! With those same two cards being front and center. I love when God is like, "Nope, sister! You need to hear me out."

And these were what was pulled for me...

The message to take away from January from the 6 of Swords:

You just went through a really rough time and now it's time to get back on track!

The message to take away from January from the Queen of Cups:

You are calm and cool. You move by compassion. You move with grace and control through tough times. Listen to your intuition. You are more capable than you think.

Um, THANK YOU! If there was ever a time that I needed a pat on my back. It's now. I can't say that I am so spiritually mature that I can be grateful for all the fires that popped last month, but I can say that I am grateful for the beauty that can be made from ashes when I am willing to surrender them.

On to a new month, bursting with new promises and lessons. While writing this, I wanted to beg God, the Universe, Source to make it better than last month, but I really just want the best for me. I want the best for me, so that I can be my best for everyone. I can't control what all will happen, but I do get to control me. I control what I think, what I do, how I respond, and how I believe. And I believe February will be exactly what I need. However, that comes about.